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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 14:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I write beautiful poetry .

She married twice! .

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All the time i was locked up.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was 9 years of age.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We were not on the streets..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Why is (n-1)(n+1)=n^2-1?

Why did i forgive my father ?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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She loved him until the end.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

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Ive learnt so much.

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He resisted the act ,that day.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

So whats the point in blame.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Comes on , in middle age.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He knew the spot.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Im still living with it.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

It was going to be , some day.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Would this be the day?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But it wasn’t much.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My mum and dad in the seventies!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was very sick at this time too.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I have no regrets .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I was seconnd youngest,

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

What did i know ?

My family never makes their pension either.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I couldn’t, believe it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But, we were locked up after school.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

When she asked me how she looked .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Especially a lifetime of it.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So, i spoilt her more .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My life is so biszare .

I will be 64.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Put me off passion for life!!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I waited trembling.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

This is soul school!.

I don,t even have a pension.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She found it foreign!.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We all went to grammer schools

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was in good health!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One cannot live in the past .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I said to her

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She wouldn,t have been !

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And i lived it daily.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Who then, do I blame.?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Was to survive, this bastard.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

(And it was in our own minds.)

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I think the readers, may guess!

I was scared of men, in general

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!